'Shower Beer' Is a Dedicated Beer for the Bathroom (Yes, This Is Real)

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By Mike Pomranz

Few beer drinking situations conjure up the relaxed romanticism of the “shower beer.” Showering evokes the idea of getting ready for something — be it the day or a night out on the town — and similarly, beer is often the “pre-game” beverage of choice. So drinking a beer in the shower combines one of the most utilitarian parts of human preparation with one of the most recreational. Not to mention breaking the general taboo of consuming any sort of food and beverage in the bathroom.

But though plenty of people discuss drinking in the shower, I’d never before heard of a product specifically tailored toward shower drinking — which is what makes a new brew, aptly called “Shower Beer” so attention grabbing.

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Created as a collaboration between Swedish craft brewery PangPang and creative agency Snask, Shower Beer is more than just a catchy name. The brew is specifically built for shower consumption: At only 18 centiliters, about 6 ounces, Shower Beer is half the size of your typical bottled or canned brew, a size “meant to gulp in three sips while standing in the shower getting ready for the night.” To make up for its small stature, Shower Beer is greatly ramped up in alcohol: 10 percent ABV or double the ABV of a Budweiser. To crunch the numbers, you’re basically left with a beer that has all the alcohol of a normal beer in half the size, allowing you to get the buzz of a full beer in a shower-length amount of time.

Shower Beer

The taste, oddly enough, is also built to help match the showering atmosphere according to the beer’s maker. “I let the Shower Beer sit longer in the primary fermenter before dry hopping and cold crashing it, compared to other PangPang beers,” PangPang brewery founder Fredrik Tunedal told Munchies. “This lets it develop a soapy flavor that in some beers is considered an ‘off’ flavor, but is just on point for the Shower Beer. The beer is heavily hopped with Citra [hops], and has a citrusy, soapy, and somewhat herbal profile.”

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Where this self-described “sweet but strong pale ale” fails to capitalize on its shower credentials, though, is in its packaging, which is glass. As anyone who has ever dropped the shampoo bottle can attest to, it seems like Shower Beer missed a golden opportunity to do what every other shower accessory has done over the years and gone the way of plastic (or at least maybe a can). That said, the brand does include an image of one of its bottles shattered on the ground in their promotional photos – so Shower Beer at least acknowledges this quandary. Maybe the glass is intended as an added challenge?

Shower Beer

But speaking of a challenge, my biggest problem with shower beer is that, in many ways, I think a seasoned shower beer drinking veteran would consider it cheating. Drinking a beer in the shower is meant to be a relaxing respite, not a race. Though maybe I’m just old fashioned.

Shower Beer was originally released last month as a one-time offering, but after that first batch sold out “instantly” (as the brand states), the brewery immediately got going on a second run and may even at the brew to its permanent lineup. But as of now, it sounds like the product making its way to the U.S. seems unlikely.

Don’t fret: What Shower Beer doesn’t want you to know is that any beer is good for the shower.

Architect Yann Chu Redesigns a Contemporary Taiwan Home

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This article originally appeared in the December 2008 issue of Architectural Digest.

It began as a minor experiment," Rudy Tseng maintains, characterizing his move some four years ago from a penthouse apartment in downtown Taipei to a rental house in the suburbs. "I wanted to see if I preferred living outside the city limits—a good 40 minutes from Taipei 101," which he takes care to explain is the world's tallest skyscraper and has even been dubbed "one of the Seven New Wonders of the World." Just as soon as he was able to conclude that he did indeed like the suburbs better, he purchased a place there, in a gated community of 600 contemporary look-more-or-less-alike houses (the strict community code dictated white exterior walls and red-clay-tile roofs).

On the upside: The three-level hillside house afforded a wide-reaching view of archaic pastoral—a valley, a river and, in the distance, a mountain with a face of grand ferocity, bearing as it did a decided resemblance to a lion's head. On the downside: Though only around 20 years old, the structure was deteriorating, battered by the roaring wind and flogging rain of Taiwan's long typhoon season, and there were weeds in the disheveled garden "as high as a human."

Tseng, a former managing director of The Walt Disney Company in Taiwan and now a professor of creative management in the graduate school of a university there, tapped the Taipei-based architect and designer Yann Chu, who had worked on both his apartment and a rental house. "When I first met Yann, he was just back from apprenticing in Paris," Tseng recalls, "and he had named his Taipei studio Marais Design, after the district in the French capital that he had worked in and loved. He was young and fresh, with a lot of good ideas, especially industrial-design concepts. I'm going to go a bit out on a limb here and call him, more than a designer, a creative space reformer. Because even after a year of living in his brainchild, I am still discovering new design elements and experiencing strong aesthetic emotions."

Tseng's own tastes ran to the simple, if not the minimal. It was inescapable, given his collection of contemporary Asian art (including works by Xu Bing, Michael Lin, Li Yuan-Chia, Lin Liang-Tsai, Jien-Shiu Lien, Chieh-Jen Chen and Zhen Zhon) and YBAs (Young British Artists, including Jason Martin, Ian Davenport and David Batchelor), that he would want the space to look a little like a contemporary art gallery. "I told Yann that everything that could be white should be white," he explains. "I needed it to all be fairly open but without feeling too cold." In the end, thanks to the architect-cum-designer's dynamism, Tseng got "something not just modern but, even better, futuristic."

Chu "changed everything," Tseng says—except for the color of the exterior and the roof, "the two no-nos." Calling for the greatest ingenuity were the concept and subsequent execution of the staircases, which are different for each level. Some are freestanding, others intramural; some are solid, others "see-through" (the railing on the staircase connecting the first and second levels, for instance, is a silver stainless-steel tube encased in glass, while the railing on the staircase connecting the second and third levels is red lacquer). The back side of the open first-to-second-level staircase is accentuated with translucent light boxes.

The architect used reflective or semitransparent materials for the flooring throughout in order to create "other dimensions." To fuse the house to the landscape, he enlarged the existing floor-to-ceiling multipaneled glass doors that opened from the living room to the garden, made still other windows bigger and even added fenestration. "On the third floor, in the den, in front of where I indicated I would be wanting to sit and read," Tseng recounts, "Yann made a window expressly to frame a banana tree he'd planted in the garden right outside." Nor did the architect forget to typhoon-proof the entire house, rigorously reinforcing everything in sight.

The garden plan for all three levels of the building as it climbs the hillside was Chu's, too. On the ground floor, 30 immature Taiwanese cypress trees frame Korean grass, a couple of Japanese cherry trees and a rectangular pond that serves as a swimming pool for Tseng's four-year-old golden retriever, Hamish. The first floor, reached by outdoor stairs, encompasses the entrance hall (Tseng describes it as "a meet-and-greet area for guests") and the vast, luminous living room. The second floor consists of a dining area, a family room and a kitchen—one big open-plan space. A glass wall with a honeycomb inlay, which allows sunlight to penetrate while maintaining privacy, divides the dining area from the lushly planted side garden.

As one ascends the stairs to the master bedroom and bath, den and guest room that constitute the third floor—a double-height amalgam where the architecture achieves its fullest, most engulfing expression—David Batchelor's freestanding neon light boxes blaze into view. Yellow, orange, blue, purple and green, they proceed to bounce fantastically off the glass panels that slice through the space as well as off a structural column that Chu wrapped in stainless steel for a mirroring effect.

Beyond a monumental door yawns the cavernous master bedroom with its semitransparent walls and pyramid ceiling. The master bath is semiopen, with a concave semitransparent boundary-blurring ceiling. On its other, semitransparent side is the book-lined den, which has furniture by Eames and Saarinen. (Chu himself designed a lot of the furniture for the house, including long benches carved from indigenous cypress, sculptural-looking wood stools and assorted cabinets, plus a dining table, a low table and a sideboard.)

"You've probably heard this before, but Chinese care about feng shui," Tseng declares, pointing out a white, surfboardlike object above his bed that he explains is hiding an air-conditioning unit. "One of the things you have to be most cautious about is bed location. The trouble was there was a structural beam over where we wanted to put my bed, and you must never put your bed directly under a beam, unless you want to have bad dreams and bad luck as well. So we put the air conditioner up there and covered it with the surfboard design. You know, there are some people who even obsess about the direction of their bed, but I figured enough was enough—I didn't want to go overboard," he says with a laugh. "Although this whole house is maybe a little bit overboard."

For all that it may look on the outside like its 599 neighbors, it certainly is singular and unexpected within: Together, Yann Chu and Rudy Tseng have made it boldly go where no house in the community has gone before.

Open House Sunday At Stunning, Modern Silver Spring Home

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SILVER SPRING, MD — Masterful modern designed by AIA fellow Ron Senseman as his own home.

Perfect flow: dining room with gorgeous view flows to second living room with stone fireplace and kitchen breakfast bar, island and newer appliances. Owner suite with vaulted ceilings, WIC and en suite stunning bath with double vanities and dual showers.

Backyard has a heated pool, level lawn with mature plantings, 2 car garage and 5 more parking spots. New roof.

Open house 3-5 p.m. Sunday.

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For Sale: $120,000
1 bd/1 full ba, 776 sqft

For Sale: $975,000
4 bd/2 full ba, 2,354 sqft

For Sale: $155,000
0 bd/0 ba

For Sale: $155,000
0 bd/0 ba

For Sale: $495,000
3 bd/2 full ba, 962 sqft

For Sale: $259,000
2 bd/2 full ba, 1,560 sqft

For Sale: $223,000
1 bd/1 full ba, 705 sqft

For Sale: $2,000,000
8 bd/8 full ba, 10,050 sqft

For Sale: $1,899,900
5 bd/5 full ba, 1,545 sqft

For Sale: $495,000
5 bd/2 full ba, 1,544 sqft

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Originally published Aug 24, 2017.

2-Bedroom Condo In Takoma Park, Open House Sunday

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TAKOMA PARK, MD — Affordable Luxury. Beautiful two bedroom/two bathroom condo fee includes all utilities.

All new paint and carpet, gourmet kitchen with beautiful granite, 42 maple cabs and stainless steel appliances, plus in-unit washer and dryer.

Three large walk-in closets. Marble bath, balcony. Pet friendly building. Front desk, pool, tennis, gym and storage. Assigned parking. Inside beltway, Mont Co. convenient to DC.

Open house 1-2:30 p.m. Sunday.

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For Sale: $975,000
4 bd/2 full ba, 2,354 sqft

For Sale: $700,000
4 bd/1 full ba, 2,281 sqft

For Sale: $239,900
1 bd/1 full ba, 586 sqft

For Sale: $925,000
3 bd/3 full ba, 1,875 sqft

For Sale: $760,000
3 bd/3 full ba, 1,478 sqft

For Sale: $120,000
1 bd/1 full ba, 776 sqft

For Sale: $1,299,000
4 bd/0 ba

For Sale: $874,000
4 bd/3 full ba, 1,700 sqft

For Sale: $329,000
3 bd/2 full ba, 1,514 sqft

For Sale: $155,000
0 bd/0 ba

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Originally published Aug 24, 2017.

Cottage Charmer With Rooftop Deck: $1.2M In Old Town Seal Beach

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SEAL BEACH, CA -- This 1950s beach cottage, for sale at $1,200,000 in the Old Town area of Seal Beach, is versatility-plus. While the "main house" offers two bedrooms, two baths and an updated kitchen, a 464-square-foot studio space, with a three-quarter bath and small kitchen, exists over the garage.

This studio could be a perfect living space for folks with "boomerang" children, older parents or abundant visitors. The space also would make an ideal artist studio or hobby room.

Or better yet? The home could be used as a "duplex" with a separate renter in the studio apartment, which also offers its own outdoor deck.

The home's 1,700-square-foot, main living area is nicely updated while retaining its period, beachy charm. Location is superb, too, with easy walking to the beach and town, close-by commute to freeways and in a great school district!

Take a look ...

• Address: 150 13th St, Seal Beach, California
• Price: $1,200,000
• Square Feet: 2164
• Bedrooms: 2
• Bathrooms: 3 Baths
• Built: 1952
• Features: Welcome to wonderful old town Seal Beach, where you will be able to walk to the beach and Main Street in minutes. A lovely facade, white picket fence and front patio welcomes you to this updated 2-story home which has the charm of a beach cottage and the square footage of a house. It features bamboo flooring, a ground-level bedroom and full bathroom, rooftop deck, a tankless water heater and it has recently been repiped.
• The house offers lots of storage, abundant closet space, extra large pantry and a master bedroom with a large, spa-like, en-suite updated bathroom with huge shower and separate clawfoot tub.
• This house may be used as 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom home, or as a duplex with a 2 bedroom/2 bathroom, 1700 sq ft front house and a large 464 sq ft studio over the garage with 3/4 bathroom, small kitchen and a large balcony.
• Look forward to enjoying the laid-back Seal Beach lifestyle, easy access to the 405, 605 and 22 freeways and having your kids in the award winning Los Alamitos school district.

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Originally published Aug 7, 2017.

from dark loft to hotel-style en suite

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‘We wanted a guest room, as we often have people to stay,’ say the owners. ‘But in order to find the space, we had to turn to the loft.’

The couple found a local company to help them plan the conversion. ‘The space was really dark and we were worried it wouldn’t have enough light,’ they say. ‘But going for the biggest Velux window we could afford has worked far better than we expected.’

The pair made a contemporary freestanding bath the focal point, with a big vanity unit on one side and the shower on the other. ‘We splashed out on the silver tile border,’ they say. ‘It keeps the room bright and is the first thing people comment on.’

Lowering the floor here gave the owners the head height necessary for a walk-in shower, which can be tricky in a loft. In terms of decor, the couple love grey. ‘Our scheme features a mixture of pale and dark greys with silver accents,’ they say. ‘And we’ve gone for four types of tile to add texture, rather than colour, which isn’t our thing.’

Twin basins enhance the hotel-style feel and help with the morning rush to get to work. Drawers beneath offer a good amount of storage space, too, which helps to keep the room uncluttered. A hit of black in this corner adds depth to the neutral scheme.

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‘We didn’t want to ruin our lovely silver tiles with wall-mounted fittings, so we’ve gone for bath taps coming up from the floor,’ say the owners.

It may have been intended for guests but the couple have claimed the loft as their own quiet retreat. ‘Now we have a hotel-standard bathroom without having to travel,’ they say. ‘It’s a wonderful luxe space that’s just for us grown-ups. ‘

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Buy now: Virginia bath, £1,607; floor-standing bath-shower mixer tap, £749.87; shower mixer, £824; loo, £612.50; Kalahari vanity unit, £1,389.01; and Kalahari double basin, £408.74, all Roca

Buy now: Aurora Borealis border tiles, £260 per sq m; and Erebos brickbond tiles, £190 per sq m, both Original Style

Buy now: Shine Niquel wall tiles, £68.51 per sq m; and Ferroker Niquel floor tiles, £81.40 per sq m, both Tiles of Wisdom

Buy now: glazed screen, £316, Mirrors & Glass

Buy now:radiator, £328, Ultra Finishing

This bathroom originally appeared in Ideal Home, June 2017.

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4 Things Every Parent of Twins Needs to Survive

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I don't know if I've ever faced a harder challenge in my parenting years than raising twins.

Maybe it's because our twins came near the end of the line of boys and they see all their older brothers do, then expect that life will be exactly like that for them.

Except there are two of them.

Oh, you want to drink out of a big-boy cup because your older brother did it when he was 2? I'm sorry. There are two of you.

Oh, you want to sit free at the table instead of strapped into your chairs because all your brothers did it when they were almost 3? I'm sorry. There are two of you.

What? You want me to leave the baby gate on your door open because you haven't yet figured out how to climb over it? I'm sorry. In case you haven't noticed, THERE ARE TWO OF YOU.

Our twins are identical, two sides of the same egg. Nature's gift, doctors say. One is left-handed, one is right-handed. They complete each other.

That's part of the problem. What one doesn't think of, the other does. What one is afraid to do, the other will try. It's like having toddler wrecking balls walking around the house, scheming about what they can destroy next. I imagine their silent conversations go a little something like this:

Twin 1: "Hey. Hey, bro. Mama's not watching. Remember how she told us not to touch this computer? She'll never know. Where is she?"

Twin 2: "She's in the bathroom. Remember what we did last time she was in the bathroom?"

Twin 1: "Oh, man. That was fun. But this computer. She'll never know. I just can't figure out how to open it."

Twin 2: "Like this. But how do you turn it on?"

Twin 1: "Easy. I've seen Daddy press this button right here."

Twin 2: "There it is."

(Mama comes back into the room with the baby she just changed.)

Twin 1: "Close it, close it, close it!"

Twin 2: "Walk away. Not too fast, not too slow. Just enough to look like we weren't doing anything."

I love my twins. Of course I do. It's just that they were unexpected.

If I could have read a primer two years ago, this is what it might have said:

Every parent of twins needs...

1. An extra dose of patience.

You will need this for many things. You will need it for the stranger at the store who asks to see your amazing bundles of joy and, after looking at their angelic, sleeping faces, declares she "always wanted twins," and you want to say, "Oh, really? Then take mine," because one was up screaming at 3 a.m. and as soon as you got him calmed down two hours later, the other one woke up screaming, and as soon as you got that one calmed down an hour later, all the other boys were up asking for breakfast. Which woke up the twins, who were also hungry. Again.

You will need it for when they learn to talk and there are so.many.words and so.many.whys and so many demands for everything under the sun. You will need it for the potty-training and the big boy bed transitions and the constant fighting from dawn until dusk.

You will need it for the times you were helping one out of his pajamas and into his day clothes and you return back downstairs to find all the jackets removed from your poetry books and spread across the living room floor like a special carpet for toddler feet for the six thousandth time. (You should probably just put those books away, Mama. Far, far away.)

"I'm an angel." That's what this face says. Keep this picture close. You'll need it for the times you wonder if he really is the devil.

2. Good decision-making skills.

These will come into play those times they both wake up at 3 a.m. because they're hungry. Which one do you feed first? (Answer: You'll figure out a way to feed both.)

You'll need these skills when one twin is in the downstairs bathroom playing with a plunger in a potty you specifically remember your older boy didn't flush five minutes ago when he stunk it up and the other is in his bathroom upstairs finger painting the mirror with a whole tube of eco-friendly toothpaste. Which do you get first? (Answer: The toilet one. Toothpaste is much easier to clean than the mess an overzealous plunger can make.)

You'll need them when the one who's known for wandering does exactly that, moves from his nap time place while you take a minute or five for a shower (because it's been four days since the last one) and you walk out to find him playing with the computer he's been told 50 billion times to leave alone and, in his panic to close it, he deletes the 1,500 words you wrote this morning before kids got up. What do you do? (Answer: Cry. And then start all over.)

3. A rigorous workout regime.

When one is running down the street because someone forgot to lock the deadbolt he can't reach and another is going out back without shoes in 26-degree rain, you'll want to be in shape for that. I recommend interval training. That way when they stop and change directions, you'll be ready. You've done this a thousand times. Ski jumps. Football runs. All-out sprints.

When they slip, unnoticed (because they're like ninjas), into the playroom while you're wiping down the table after a ridiculously messy lunch, and both of them come out with their scooters, you'll want to be able to wrestle those "cooters" from screaming, flailing bodies without hurting anyone.

And when one collapses in the middle of the park because it's time to go and he's not ready yet and the other thinks that just might work, you'll need strong arms to carry 32 pounds of kicking and screaming twins back to the car, one tucked under each armpit.

4. Containment measures.

This would be things like strollers until they're 3 and booster seats until they're 4 and a baby gate on their door until they're... 15. Well, maybe 13.

It also means leashes at the city zoo on a packed day, even though you said you'd never use them and you can feel the disapproval of other people and you want to say, "Come talk to me when you have 2-year-old twins. These things have saved their lives 17 billion times, and that was before we even got out of the parking lot."

Containment saves lives. And sanity.

Twins are great. And hard. And maddening. And great. And so hard.

They can disassemble an 8-year-old's room of LEGO Star Wars ships in 3.1 seconds. They can disassemble a heart with one identical smile and a valiant try at saying "Uptown Funk You Up" that sounds like it should have come with a bleep.

There's just nothing like them in the world. You'll be so glad you get to be their mama.

Especially after they fall asleep.

A version of this essay originally appeared on Crash Test Parents. Find Rachel on Twitter, Facebook and Instagram.

Bruce Beresford-Redman's prison diaries - CBS News

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Produced by Josh Yager, Paul LaRosa and Ana Real

"48 Hours" first told the story of Bruce Beresford-Redman in 2012. His wife, Monica, was murdered in a Cancun hotel while his family was vacationing. Bruce returned to the United States to take care of his children, but when Mexico charged him with his wife's murder, he was extradited there to stand trial. Nearly three years later, he is still on trial.

Where does the case stand and how long will Monica's family have to wait for justice? "48 Hours" correspondent Troy Roberts confronts Beresford-Redman about the charges against in him in his first sit-down interview.

Video diary: "My name is Bruce Beresford-Redman ... I'm in a Mexican prison, where I've been on trial now ... for more than two years and nine months. I am accused of the murder of my wife, Monica ... for a crime I did not commit."

In a video diary he made for "48 Hours", Bruce Beresford-Redman says not a day goes by that he doesn't "miss and think about his wife."

Monica's family misses her too.

"I wish I could believe that he didn't have anything to with my sister's murder," said her sister Jeanne Burgos in a 2012 interview with Troy Roberts. "It's for the love that we have for her and all the memories that we have about her ... that we are here today demanding justice."

Bruce Beresford-Redman

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Recording diary entries in his cell inside Cancun's Benito Juarez Prison and elsewhere around the prison compound over a period of four months, Beresford-Redman says he wanted people to "understand what can happen, to get an idea of, what things are like here in Hell."

Video diary: "Making these video has really made me much more visible here ... which is really not a great thing for me...My existence in here has become a very basic struggle to simply survive."

"For many years I worked in reality TV and the reality of reality television, even at its best ... it's a world that is created. Being in here is real ... it is real and it sucks. .. it's noisy and it's smelly and it's sweaty and hot and cramped ... it's extremely uncomfortable.

"This is not an easy place to be I really don't have any, any what you could call real friends here ... and it's impossible for me to really have anybody in here that I can trust."

Riots there are not uncommon. In his video diary, Beresford-Redman documents the effects of being tear-gassed during an uprising.

Video diary: "It's Friday ... I've heard some pops and then I smelled the tear gas ... I'm getting kind of a choking sensation now ... and my eyes are just burning...it's just really strong ... itchy ... burning ... oh, god, it's awful."

A NEW REALITY

Living behind bars has been the reality for Beresford-Redman since "48 Hours" first met him in February 2012.

"This is not the United States. I really don't know this system. I don't know how it works," he told "48 Hours."

Back then, Beresford-Redman was housed in the high security wing of the Benito Juarez Prison -- a cell block full of drug traffickers and assassins responsible for countless murders around Mexico.

Now, he's in general population where he has more freedom. Beresford-Redman agreed to make video diaries to document his day-to-day life. It is a rare glimpse inside a Mexican prison.

Video diary: "Being incarcerated anywhere, but I think maybe especially here, time just gets warped ... it is almost impossible to live in the present because the present is just absolutely miserable."

"I don't think that I could possibly convey what it feels like to have not seen my children, not held my children, for nearly three years now."

"Everything that I worked my life to build is gone... If I'm convicted, I am facing a sentence of 30 years..."

Beresford-Redman says he spends a lot of time reliving time with his wife and kids -- "just times when I was free."

Bruce and Monica Beresford-Redman

Images of Monica -- lovely, vivacious and headstrong -- haunt Beresford-Redman.

Video diary:"I've had a lotta time to think back on things and to remember things from the past..."

For more than two years, "48 Hours" tried to get permission to do a sit-down interview in the prison. That interview between correspondent Troy Roberts and Beresford-Redman took place earlier this year.

"How did you meet Monica?" Roberts asked.

"Monica owned a restaurant in and a nightclub in -- in West Los Angeles called Zabumba," Beresford-Redman replied. "I randomly went there one night for dinner. And this beautiful woman served me great food ... it was a fun place. And I ... went back to try and get her attention ... and I sorta never left. ...Monica was the most beautiful, engaging-- just-- she was great. She was so cool, and -- very quickly I found that my relationship with her was different than any relationship I'd ever had before and I was in love with her and she was in love with me and it was terrific."

Monica's sisters, Carla and Jeanne Burgos, say that when Bruce and Monica first met back in 1997, they seemed like a happy couple. The Burgos sisters spoke to "48 Hours" in 2012.

"She had life. She was very outgoing and self-confident," Jeanne said. "Bruce was a very well read person. He can be very eloquent ... but not necessarily the emotion."

After marrying in 1999, the couple had two children: Camilla, now 10, and Alec, now 7.

Monica had the restaurant and Bruce had his career, which was taking off in a hurry. He was a top producer on the CBS program "Survivor" and also worked on several hit reality shows for other networks and cable outlets.

As the money poured in, the family moved to a $2 million house in Los Angeles. With the more lavish lifestyle, came some unexpected challenges.

"Things became difficult?" Roberts asked.

"At times, sure," Beresford-Redman replied. "Both Monica and I worked a great deal. ...I worked during the day, she worked at night ... there was a period of time when we were sort of passing one another."

If that sounds like a recipe for marital discord, it was. Beresford-Redman began an affair with his longtime casting director Joy Pierce. At times, the two had trouble keeping their hands off each other, even in front of Monica's sister, Carla.

"I went with him to a party," she said. "It was a club ... we got there ... she jumped on his lap ... and I was ... you know..."

"You were stunned," Roberts noted.

"Yeah," Carla replied.

Beresford-Redman was struggling with the affair on an emotional level. He considered telling his parents, David and Juanita, and eventually confided in his mother.

Asked if she encouraged her son to break off the affair, Juanita told Roberts, "I did. I said, 'You know, that's the only smart thing to do. You will hurt yourself. You will hurt Monica.' ...I got the impression that he had really fallen in love and it was going to be very difficult for him to break it off."

After Monica angrily confronted her husband, Beresford-Redman wrote her a brutally frank e-mail. It was written on March 4, 2010 - only one month before the couple was to leave on their ill-fated Mexican vacation. In the e-mail, Beresford-Redman laid bare the painful truth, writing: "Joy and I were lovers." Monica was devastated.

"My relationship with Monica was good," said Beresford-Redman.

"You can't paint a rosy picture on this, right? Roberts asked. " I mean ... you guys had problems."

"Like any marriage, like any family, we had -- we had issues, certain issues," he replied. "But we were -- we were happily married and we were in love with each other ... We were good."

Beresford-Redman wouldn't talk to "48 Hours" about his affair, but in an e-mail written to Joy Pierce in the spring of 2010, he outlined the steps a furious Monica had taken against him: "She...denied me access to my children ... she shut me out of my home ... and liquidated all my money, " he wrote.

"It was a point where she had decided to get divorced from him," said Jeanne.

But Beresford-Redman did all he could to change Monica's mind. He promised he'd break off his affair with Joy and told Monica he would change his ways. Monica agreed to go with him for the family vacation they took every year for her upcoming birthday. This time, they traveled to the Moon Palace Resort in Cancun, Mexico.

"And how was the trip, initially?" Roberts asked Beresford-Redman.

"It was good. It was -- it was really fun, you know," he replied.

"So you and Monica got along well during this trip?" Roberts asked.

"Yeah, we had a really good time," said Bruce.

That's hardly the way Monica described the trip, according to her sister, Jeanne, who says she spoke to Monica by phone the day before she was murdered. Jeanne says Monica was upset about Bruce's cheating.

"I told her, 'Monica, don't worry. You know, come back here, just move on with your life,'" Jeanne said. "...you're just going to build up your life again and you're going to be happy again."

The next day, April 5, 2010, was to be the last day of Monica's life.

"She was gonna do some shopping-- and then she was perhaps gonna go to a spa," Beresford-Redman explained.

"And when did you grow concerned?" Roberts asked.

"Probably 10:30 or 11:00 that night," he said, sighing.

Bruce's concern was made all the worse because he says Monica had not taken her cell phone so he could not call her. Police later discovered that she did not take her passport or a room key, either.

"Was that surprising that she didn't take her phone when you were alone with kids?" Roberts asked.

"No. No, not really," Beresford-Redman replied. "When Monica was off the grid, she was off the grid."

She didn't take her cell phone? She left the kids all day with him? She never does that, ever," Jeanne told Roberts.

Video diary: "One of the things that I remember from the night that Monica was first missing was my children sleeping. I had given them baths and I had put them to bed ...and I thought, 'OK, I'm gonna go outside and I'm gonna take a look. I'm gonna see Monica walking back towards the room."

But Monica did not come back to the room -- not that night and not ever. The long, upward trajectory of Beresford-Redman's once-successful life and career was about to end abruptly.

A LOOK INSIDE PRISON LIFE

When Bruce Beresford-Redman left on his family vacation to Mexico in 2010, he probably never thought home would turn out to be Cancun's Benito Juarez prison.

The prison, where he has spent nearly three years on trial for his wife's murder, houses more than 1,800 men and women in a compound originally built for 700.

Video diary: "When I walk around the prison, no matter where I'm going or what's going on, I am constantly aware that this is just a hostile environment for me."

"I'm completely shut down. I'm simply in survival mode," Beresford-Redman told Roberts. "To make it in here, you cannot indulge in human sentiments. ... you really have to deaden part of yourself and just survive."

Video diary: "My Spanish is still not very good ... So I'm always paying attention ... and you're never really able to relax."

It's a pressure cooker of criminals and contraband that often boils over.

"You're with people who have demonstrated poor impulse control and a number of them may have mental problems,"Beresford-Redman explained. "It's not uncommon to have fist fights ... screaming matches ...it is a very dehumanizing situation."

Bruce Beresford-Redman his cell at Cancun's Benito Juarez Prison.

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Video diary: The cell that I'm in is a very small cell ... it's designed for three men. And there are 10 of us in here. There have been as many as 17... This is the bathroom of the cell. All of these buckets are full of water. The water here runs only for a couple hours a day."

"I come back from my workout and I take my first shower of the day ... I shower four times a day ... I wash my clothes ... I do everything I can to keep myself clean and healthy. It's a real struggle ... This place seems like a really great place to incubate a plague. Despite my best efforts I managed to get a rash that everyone else here had that just swept through this place like wildfire."

The cell is open to the elements -- rain and relentless heat. He says the smell from open sewers is blinding, adding that "the whole country -- it feels like is just steaming."

Video diary: This is my bunk where I sleep. I've awakened probably seven or eight times now with a cockroach on me someplace.

Among the personal items Beresford-Redman keeps on a shelf above his bed -- his favorite picture of his daughter and son.

Video diary: "This is breakfast this morning ... brown liquid with some beans on the bottom there I think ... I have gotten violently ill eating the prison food... I have been able to supplement my diet ... with-- food brought from outside. I befriended-- an inmate in here. He has since been released. But his family still comes to see me once a week with some home-cooked meals and some snacks and some other things, so that I don't have to rely entirely on the prison food."

To pay for his food and other expenses, Beresford-Redman's parents send him money from their retirement nest egg. Less fortunate inmates have to rely on meals in buckets served by new prisoners known as "talachos."

Video diary: "They are as close as you can come to slaves. You can buy your way out of it, or you can do your talacho work for your first year here."

"The guards basically maintain a perimeter on the outside and their concern primarily is making sure that nobody gets out... The prisoners discipline each other ... and it's much more dangerous, because there's really nobody to come to your help, to your aid, if you are in trouble in here."

Danger is all around, but he says Mexican prison also means a freedom he never had in American prison, where he spent 18 months awaiting extradition.

Video diary: "In many ways, this is like a very small village that they just threw razor wire around. There's churches in here, there's a mechanic shop in here ... guys making hammocks."

Some of the women prisoners are even allowed to have their children live with them. Three times a week it's visiting day.

Video diary: "...this place is full today of families ... on visit days. From 8:00 in the morning to 3:00 in the afternoon the prison ... fills up with families and wives and kids...

"Family is extraordinarily highly valued here and the prison administration and prisoners themselves and the gangs in here have enormous respect for the visits."

He says visit days make him sad, "a little melancholy." There are no family visits for Beresford-Redman.

Video diary: "I would not allow them. I don't want them to be confronted with how I am forced to exist in here."

So Beresford-Redman hasn't seen them in nearly three years. His lifeline is phone calls to his children, Alec and Camilla, who live with his parents in California.

Video diary: "To hear my kids' voices, to hear my parents' voices ... is the best, most human part of my day. ... I have not been able to be a father to Camilla and Alec for ... years now. It is devastating. It takes all of my energy just to keep going."

But there's no choice. Beresford-Redman, his family, and Monica's sisters are all navigating an unfamiliar landscape: justice in a foreign country.

"There's no question that the Mexican legal system is different from ours," said Sonya Tsiros, U.S. Consul General for the Cancun area.

Tsiros says she is closely following the Beresford-Redman case - and that by Mexican standards, it doesn't surprise her.

"Has Mr. Beresford-Redman complained to you about the length of this trial?" Roberts asked.

"He has raised that issue," Tsiros replied. "And we're following through on that."

"Do you have any sense of what the prison conditions are like?" Roberts asked.

"I would say that the prison conditions are not up to what we would consider standards in the United States," said Tsiros.

Beresford-Redman, at least, has a bed. "48 Hours" found another American, 38-year-old Johnny Mintu, from Seattle, who, incredibly, sleeps on the floor under Bruce's bunk. It's not uncommon in this prison.

Video diary: "From time to time ... when I just really need some privacy and a little bit of quiet and just a little more space than I can get in my cell or in the rest of the prison ... I book a conjugal room."

Most inmates rent the room for sex. Beresford-Redman says he rents it for peace and quiet.

Video diary: "You're not supposed to be in here by yourself. But I just put down the name Jane Doe and nobody's ever checked."

Trying to recreate life outside the bars is only a temporary escape.

Video diary: "I cannot afford in here to appear on the outside as absolutely broken as I feel on the inside."

As the sun begins to set, the prisoners are locked in for the night.

Video diary: Another night here ... another night in paradise ... then I just lay down and try to go to sleep...

It's a sleep, he says, that is haunted by the memory of his murdered wife.

Video diary: "I still miss her all the time and I still think of her all the time ... I never lose sight of the fact that this is really Monica's story."

Monica's story is a murder mystery. And for Beresford-Redman, it's a real whodunit.

THE DAY MONICA DISAPPEARED

With so much time on his hands, Bruce Beresford-Redman says he thinks often of the day Monica disappeared.

"As soon as I was awake, I called the hotel desk, I guess, and I said you know, 'My wife didn't come back yesterday. Do you know where she is?'" Beresford-Redman told Troy Roberts.

Monica Beresford-Redman

After reporting that she was missing, he called Jeane Burgos, Monica's sister.

"When Bruce called you to say that Monica was missing what went through your mind?" Roberts asked.

"My sister missing? Monica? Monica's not a person that gets lost, she doesn't get lost," Jeanne replied. "She's a person that she goes anywhere and she makes friends and she knows what she's doing."

A worried Jeanne immediately flew to Cancun to help with the search, but the next day, hotel workers found Monica's body in that sewer situated near the family's hotel room.

"How could someone put a person in the sewage. Very, very, very horrible," she said.

"How did you learn that her body was discovered?" Roberts asked Beresford-Redman.

"I was at the hotel ... I was sitting there waiting ...and they brought me back to my room," he replied. "I had no idea what was going on. ...Finally someone told me that they had found Monica's body.

It would have been her 42nd birthday.

Video diary: "I could not make sense of that. It just didn't seem possible."

Bruce Beresford-Redman became a suspect almost immediately because investigators thought his story of Monica's disappearance defied logic. They didn't believe she would leave the children behind without taking her room key, her passport, or even her cell phone. What's more, Beresford-Redman had visible scratches on his body.

He says the injuries to his hand occurred after a boat ride as he tried to carry his children up a steep incline.

"It was rocky and slippery and I had to lift the kids out and then climb out myself and I scratched my hands a little bit," he explained.

As for the scratches to the back of his neck?

"We were diving ... and I surfaced and there was a nylon rope and it was just a rough nylon rope and it abraded ... the back of my head a little bit and that was it," he told Roberts.

Police also learned that two English teenagers had reported hearing screams coming from Beresford-Redman's room very early on the morning Bruce said Monica went shopping.

Jen Heger covered the story for Radar Online.

"A female screamed crying for help," Heger explained. "The next morning, the teenagers told their parents about what they had heard to the concierge. The concierge called the hotel room to see what was going on and Bruce said that Bruce and Monica were arguing about the children and that everything was fine."

Beresford-Redman maintains that he and the children were simply playing a loud, boisterous game. But now his every move was coming under scrutiny.

Asked why he had a "do not disturb" sign on the door all day, Beresford-Redman told Roberts, "Well, I was in and out all day with the kids. We were napping and doing stuff and didn't wanna be disturbed. It's as simple as that really."

"The Mexican authorities believe that Bruce wouldn't allow the maids to clean the room that day because there was a dead body inside and that dead body belonged to his wife -- Monica," said Heger.

The police theorized that Beresford-Redman had suffocated his wife and, later that night, went looking for a place to stash her body.

"We also know," Heger continued, "someone went in and out of the room nine times in the middle of the night."

Beresford-Redman says he was nervously checking to see if Monica was about to return.

"I was in and out of the room many times to take a look to see if I could see her, to walk down to where the footpath is visible and to take a look and return to the room," Beresford-Redman told Roberts.

Back in Los Angeles, Monica's sister, Carla Burgos, thought back to the last time she had seen Bruce and how agitated he seemed to her. It was just two days before the family left for Cancun.

"I've seen him before they traveled and he was totally angry and crazy. I said, 'Don't be around him ... Monica, please listen to me, get out,'" she said.

"Why do you think Monica's family is convinced that you killed her?" Roberts asked.

"I really don't know," Beresford-Redman replied. "I understand their pain. I understand their sense of loss. After my children and myself, their loss is the greatest ... however, why they wanna blame me, I don't know ... that I don't know."

Monica also had life insurance. Her husband was not the beneficiary, but the children stood to inherit $500,000 each. All in all, investigators believed they had a strong circumstantial case but there remained a huge question -- how could Beresford-Redman kill his wife, and then dump her body while taking care of two young children?

"They were in one hotel room and it was not a suite. It was one room," said Heger.

There was scant physical evidence against Beresford-Redman except for a very small amount of blood investigators found on the bedroom pillow and a balcony railing.

"When people look at you with suspicion, how do you feel?" Roberts asked.

"I've been accused of a horrible, abhorrent crime and I'm innocent," said Beresford-Redman.

"You did not kill Monica," said Roberts.

"I did not kill Monica," Bruce replied.

But the police were convinced Bruce Beresford-Redman did kill Monica and they had no other suspects. The hotel, which says it kept written logs of everyone entering or leaving the grounds, reported it had no record of Monica leaving that day. And if there are security cameras at the Moon Palace, no recordings have surfaced.

Video diary: "My best guess would be that somewhere in the course of her day, she ran into some people that she should not have run across ... I think perhaps she attracted the attention of someone who was very dangerous."

While Beresford-Redman was cooperating with police, his children were taken back to Los Angeles by a friend of Jeanne Burgos. She also arranged for her sister's body to be brought back, even though Beresford-Redman had already paid for Monica to be cremated.

"Why do you think Bruce moved to have Monica cremated?" Roberts asked Jeanne Burgos.

"I think it's pretty self-explanatory," she said.

"Why do you think?" Roberts pressed.

"To get rid of any evidence," Jeanne replied.

Beresford-Redman stayed in Mexico for about a week after Monica's body was found. Authorities took his passport and insist they ordered him to remain in the country. He says his lawyer told him he was free to return to the United States.

"48 Hours" correspondent interviews Bruce Beresford-Redman

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"This is what I find a little difficult ... is that they're investigating your wife's murder and you go home? Why wouldn't you stay here?" Roberts asked.

"Well, because I have two small children who were at my home. They just lost their mom and I believed at the time that I had done all I could do to help the police so I went home to be with my children," he replied.

Having no passport, Beresford-Redman got a ride to the Mexican border near Laredo, Texas, and simply walked across using his driver's license for identification. From there, he took a train rather than fly back to Los Angeles. His unorthodox journey raised suspicions.

"You didn't go back to the United States to escape possible arrest?" Roberts asked Beresford-Redman.

"No, I went home to be with my children. I was at my home. I was not hiding. If I'd been trying to evade I would have attempted to evade. I went back to the United States and went directly home," he explained.

Beresford-Redman cared for his children for seven months. But in November 2010, Mexico declared him a fugitive and issued a warrant for his arrest. He was taken to a federal jail in Los Angeles where he stayed for more than a year until he was finally extradited back to Cancun to stand trial for the murder of his wife.

"Bruce probably feels that he is trapped in the worst reality show he could ever imagine," said Heger.

SEEKING JUSTICE IN MEXICO

In February 2012, Bruce Beresford-Redman -- outfitted in a bulletproof vest -- was extradited back to Mexico in a scene straight out of a movie.

Video diary: "I was taken by the U.S. Marshals to the airport ... I was brought here in the middle of the night in a rainstorm..."

"I hoped that my trial would end quickly when I got here," he told Roberts.

That is not what happened. Essentially, the courts in Mexico move at their own pace. There are no juries and in many courtrooms on any given day, there's more than one trial going on at the same time.

Video diary: "The courtroom that I'm being tried in looks like a very busy shipping office above a warehouse someplace."

Criminal defense lawyer Pat Fanning lives part-time in Mexico and has experience with the country's judicial system.

"They just don't have the resources to do the things the way we do," Fanning told Roberts. "Here, it's more like a municipal office in the United States where you'd go to get your driver's license, where you'd go to pick up a birth certificate or something."

U.S. Consul General Sonya Tsiros says the differences are more than cosmetic.

"There's not a trial, per se, in that there is one period of time in which a judge hears all of the evidence. ... It's done through a series of written presentations to the judge," Tsiros explained. "It doesn't occur ... in the same fashion in the United States."

But as the trial has dragged on, what once seemed like a strong prosecution case appeared to evaporate in court. Testing revealed that the blood droplets found in the hotel room did not belong to Monica. That raised questions about where Monica had been killed because she had suffered a substantial head wound.

"Our experts ... say it is not possible to kill someone and produce that type of injuries without leaving blood," said Jaime Cancino, who is one of Beresford-Redman's lawyers in Mexico. "If that have happened there... it would produced a humungous quantity of blood."

In court, prosecutors could not even produce the Q-tips investigators used to collect the blood. Most everything else they took from the family's hotel room as potential evidence turned out to be contaminated by mold and water damage while in police custody.

And some of the physical evidence presented at trial helped Beresford-Redman. Footprints found near the crime scene were not Bruce's. It also came to light that Monica's fingernails were not tested for the presence of DNA because her body was so decomposed.

"There isn't much direct evidence and the evidence they do have has been contaminated, largely," Roberts noted to Fanning.

"Well, it has in -- in large part. But you still have, for example, that they were havin' marital troubles ... that he had a girlfriend ... the life insurance policy on her for half-a-million dollars," he replied.

But in court, even the circumstantial case against Beresford-Redman appeared weaker than advertised.

Some witnesses, like the English teenagers who reported overhearing screams coming from the Beresford-Redman room, did not appear in court. Beresford-Redman says other witnesses did not repeat the stories they had first told police.

"It's clear to me that they have no idea what happened to my wife," he told Roberts. "There was witness, who was a housekeeper, I think. And he came in ... and before anyone asked a question, he said, 'I wasn't there that day. I didn't see anything. I don't know anything and I don't know why I'm here as a witness.'"

Another person not called to the stand or even part of the case was Emily Hamilton from Baltimore. She says she was nearly raped at the Moon Palace one month after Monica was murdered. And her attacker, Hamilton says, was a hotel worker delivering food to her room.

"He threw me on the bed. ... He had his arms around me. I was trying to force him off and I remember feeling pain ... 'cause I thought I could fend for myself, but he was too strong and overbearing ... and that's when I yelled for my friend Casey and she came back in and that's when he was pulling up his pants and that's when he ran out of the room," said Hamilton.

"So you must've been frightened out of your mind," said Roberts.

"Very much so," Hamilton replied.

That worker was fired. In the United States, it's likely he'd be a suspect in Monica's murder, but that possibility was not raised in Beresford-Redman's trial. However, in 2013, an independent criminologist was appointed by the court to review all the evidence against Beresford-Redman.

"He reviewed the case, he visited the crime scene, he did all the things required to make his report," Beresford-Redman told Roberts.

After six months, the criminologist released a bombshell of a report. His conclusion: Monica was not murdered in her Moon Palace hotel room and there was no physical evidence linking Beresford-Redman to her murder.

Video diary: "I naively assumed at that point that the prosecution would drop the charges and would focus their investigative efforts elsewhere ... and nothing has happened. Charges aren't dropped. My trial continues with no end in sight. I'm still here..."

"If you're gonna convict me, convict me so I can appeal. Otherwise just give me a ruling so I can go home," said Beresford-Redman.

"Do you think you're being unfairly singled out?" Roberts asked.

"I don't know," he replied. "It feels at times to me like they don't wanna do anything with me. I'm stuck and ... in many ways I feel like I'm without a country."

Sonia Tsiros says members of the U.S. consulate have visited Beresford-Redman on 19 separate occasions.

"U.S. citizens who are arrested in a foreign country are subject to the laws of that foreign country," Tsiros explained. "We can't intervene in court cases and we can't request special treatment for U.S. citizens."

"Can you use the influence of your office to move things along?" Roberts asked.

"If there's due process violation, we can raise those. But we can't intervene in -- in a case," she said.

"I'm broken inside. I have lost my wife. I lost my children ... I've lost everything else," Beresford-Redman told Roberts. "I'm on emotional autopilot, just surviving every day in the hopes that I will finally at some point get outta here but that is a diminishing hope."

Of course, he is not the only one who's lost a loved one.

"Everybody loved her," Carla Burgos said of her sister, Monica. "She was so awesome, so full of life. She was so fun, so smart. Everything,"

Each side hopes for justice ... and that may soon be coming because after nearly three years, the last witnesses will finally testify.

A LAST HEARING

After years in a Mexican prison - and in legal limbo - Bruce Beresford-Redman's trial finally may be nearing an end.

Video diary: "It's a Thursday afternoon. Tomorrow I will be taken back to court, and I am told it will be the last hearing in my trial...

"It's very difficult for me to get my hopes up... because I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop ... and so often it seems to drop on my head."

He says the trial so far hasn't made any sense. Lost or contaminated evidence, missing witnesses and agonizing delays. It's his first court date in about three months.

On this day, he's set to face the prosecutor's final two witnesses -- hotel employees who may have witnessed Bruce and Monica arguing the day before her murder.

"How many times have you appeared before this judge?" Roberts asked.

"If I had to guess, I would say probably, 40, maybe 45 appearances in court over two-and- a-half years. At the many of those appearances, however-- the witness doesn't show up, and we stand around for a little while and they reschedule the witness for another eight weeks or 10 weeks down the road and we all go home again," Beresford-Redman replied.

But these witnesses actually do show up. Today, it's the judge who doesn't.

Like many of the other hearings, this one goes ahead anyway with the judge's assistant presiding.

Video diary: "...the witnesses arrived ... no one including the prosecution seemed to have any idea what they were going to say..."

Incredibly, the final two prosecution witnesses sound like part of the defense team. Both tell the court they've never laid eyes on Beresford-Redman or his wife.

"We didn't hear them arguing," one of them told "48 Hours" after the hearing. "We didn't even see their faces."

With no more witnesses on either side, Mexican law requires the judge to conclude the evidence phase of the trial within about five days; but that doesn't happen.

"Why don't we have a verdict?" Roberts asked Pat Fanning.

"Because we're in Mexico," he replied. "That's how things are done here and nobody gets excited about it."

For nearly three years, "48 Hours" has asked Mexican authorities to go on the record about this case. But they refused.

Back in prison, it's hard for Beresford-Redman not to hope.

Video diary: "Yesterday was a good day...and you sort of take them as they come..."

"I am absolutely confident that if -- if there is a ruling according to the facts, that I will be exonerated," he said.

"And when will that happen?" Roberts asked.

"Well ... that I don't know. That's my problem," he replied.

But the Burgos sisters insist Bruce is right where he should be. And justice for Monica demands that he stay there.

"If he really killed my sister, which it looks like he did, I want him in jail. But it doesn't make me happy to see him in jail," said Carla Burgos.

Video diary: "I spend a lotta time in here looking over the barbed wire ... I can see birds and green trees and life outside -- oh this Hell...

"It's really time for me to go home. It's time for me to be with Camilla and Alec. It's time for me to try and put back together some kind of a life for them and for myself."

His parents, meanwhile, are trying to keep life in California as normal as possible for Alec and Camilla, but it's not easy -- they're 81 and 76.

Juanita Beresford-Redman has been keeping a video diary, too:

"It's ... about 8:30 in the morning. The children have gone off to school. It's reasonably quiet at the moment.

"Camilla's birthday is coming up ... and she asked me yesterday did I think daddy might be able to home for her birthday this year... and I told her honestly, "No honey...he's not gonna make it this year."

"Is it your fear that this may go on indefinitely?" Roberts asked Juanita.

"It is a fear," she replied. "I can't see why it's gone on this long."

Carla and Jeanne Burgos tried and failed to get custody, but they have regular visitation with the children.

"We love those kids more than anything in this world," Jeanne said. "It's not what is good, what is bad, it's what is the best for the kids."

"We are a family, but we're not their father... we're their grandparents," Juanita said. "We love them, but, it's not the same."

"I will never make my peace with being incarcerated for something I didn't do. I will never rest or stop fighting. I may lose continually, but I'm never gonna stop ... because this is crap," Beresford-Redman told Roberts.

But as memories and milestones slip past, all Bruce Beresford-Redman can do is watch, wait, and wish his children well.

Video diary: "...I love you guys, I miss you. Be strong and ... and all I want is for you guys to have the best life you can."

Prosecutors should be submitting their closing arguments in writing by the end of November.